I don't know what I'm feeling. Seems like everything. Definitely too much, anyways.

But I'll try not to be all blamey at myself. [Which... she did not so much think she would succeed at, but if he was so certain - at least she's going to try not to think about it at all for the rest of the night, and that's almost the same thing. Right?]

They can be very irritating, feelings.